Over the last year we, my hubby & I, have really had to change the way we are living our life. Serving God & trying to do His will, as we understand it, has been a part of the majority of our married life… but God has really challenged us (me) more than ever. God is always asking me, “How much are you willing to trust Me? Are you ready to give everything up as you know it, to follow Me to something bigger I have for your life?” I am sharing this to only say that God keeps “shaking” us/me awake to what new step He has for us... what might be next?
As a kid I can remember playing with a sliding tile puzzle… maybe some of you don’t even know what I am talking about. It is a hand-held plastic game board, about 3”x 3”, that had 15 interlocking tiles that you would slide around trying to put all the tiles in order to make a picture or to get the numbers in order. Each tile was important to the puzzle, and each move you made could make it or break it. There would be many times I would slide the same piece around in a “circle” trying to get it to go where it belonged. I must confess there were times I tried to cheat by popping a tile out so I could solve it easily… that never worked though because even if I could get it popped out I could not get it pushed back in!
That is how my life feels sometimes lately… like a sliding tile puzzle! God has every piece of my life in His hands and He has to be the one to make the picture. There are many days I try to slide a tile into a different position and that usually just scrambles things all the more. I can only see one piece at a time… and some days maybe not even the whole piece… but God can see the whole picture.
Okay, so here is my fleshly truth… there are moments or even days that I want to turn back from this path. It seems too hard when I feel like I don’t know where I belong. I feel lonely and isolated, and let’s face it… just plain impatient! I know God knows what He is doing, but does He have to take so long to do it??? Really?!
And God’s truth… He knows the plans He has for me, plans for peace and not harm, and a future filled with hope (Jeremiah 29:11). He also has promised never to leave me (Hebrews 13:5) He said, if I love Him I will be obedient to His Word (John , 2 John 1:6). And just like Jesus said to Peter when Peter wanted to walk on water to come to Jesus, but failed… “You of little faith, why do you doubt?” Matthew 14:31
That is it… there really can be no arguing with God’s truth! I cannot live by how I feel which changes from moment to moment! I have God’s solid truth to stand on. I may be only a dot in His big picture, but it is okay… that is where faith and trust have to come into play. I must trust Him enough to go where He says to go, move where He says to move, and speak what He says to speak.
As we grow in our faith… we can see clearer & clearer, or maybe it isn’t really clearer, but rather that we are walking by faith & not by sight! (2 Corinthians 5:7) Some days I must look like… 2 steps forward, 3 steps back! Do you have those days too? We can always say, “No.”… but the truth is… it is not about us. We all are a dot in His picture! Is your dot in the place where He wants you to be?
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. ~ Psalm 51:10
I don’t know what you are going through, but God does… He cares. Cry out to Him and lay yourself at His feet. When feelings start to overtake remember His Truth! Lord, I pray for each person that reads this… help us to keep our eyes focused on You… the One that holds life in His hands. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Rejoicing in Truth!