A few months ago my hubby and I were asked by God to change the way we were living our life. We were already serving Him and doing His will as we knew it to be, but He threw a challenge out there to me. He asked, “How much was I willing to trust Him? Was I ready to give everything up as I knew it, to follow Him to something bigger He had for my life?” I am not sharing any of this to pat myself or my hubby on the back… all I can say is God woke me up at in the morning knowing that this is what He had me to be doing at this moment rather than sleeping! I guess… I can sleep anytime!
As a kid I can remember playing with a sliding tile puzzle… maybe some of you don’t even know what I am talking about. It is a hand-held plastic game board, about 3”x 3”, that had 15 interlocking tiles that you would slide around trying to put all the tiles in order to make a picture or to get the numbers in order. Each tile was important to the puzzle, and each move you made could make it or break it. There would be many times I would slide the same piece around in a “circle” trying to get it to go where it belonged. I must confess there were times I tried to cheat by popping a tile out so I could solve it easily… that never worked though because even if I could get it popped out I could not get it pushed back in!
That is how my life feels sometimes lately… like a sliding tile puzzle! God has every piece of my life in His hands and He has to be the one to make the picture. There are many days I try to slide a tile into a different position and that usually just scrambles things all the more. I can only see one piece at a time… and some days maybe not even the whole piece… but God can see the whole picture.
Okay, so here is my fleshly truth… there are moments or even days that I want to turn back from this path. It seems too hard when I feel like I don’t know where I belong. I feel lonely and isolated, and let’s face it… just plain impatient! I know God knows what He is doing, but does He have to take so long to do it??? Really?!
And God’s truth… He knows the plans He has for me, plans for peace and not harm, and a future filled with hope (Jeremiah 29:11). He also has promised never to leave me (Hebrews 13:5) He said, if I love Him I will be obedient to His Word ( John , 2 John 1:6). And just like Jesus said to Peter when Peter wanted to walk on water to come to Jesus, but failed… “You of little faith, why do you doubt?” Matthew 14:31
That is it… there really can be no arguing with God’s truth! I cannot live by how I feel which changes from moment to moment! I have God’s solid truth to stand on. I may be only a dot in His big picture, but it is okay… that is where faith and trust have to come into play. I must trust Him enough to go where He says to go, move where He says to move, and speak what He says to speak.
When God asked us to make this change and we decided to follow… the first step He gave us was to leave the church where we were happy and content. He was asking us to go to a smaller church that needed more people with hearts to serve… a church a distance from where we live and we didn’t really know too many people there. We could have said no… but it was not about us. If church was only suppose to be a “social club” than it would have been easy to say no. What does church mean to you? Why do you attend the church you do? Are you investing your time and talents there? Is it for the people that are there… is it for the pastor… is it for the music… or are you where God has called you to be? There have been so many people leaving their churches lately because they don’t like how things are changing or they have taken an offense of how someone was treated. Are those good reasons to leave a church? What would happen if we all chose to go where God told us to go… or stay where God told us to stay? Are you unhappy in your church… make sure you check your heart before you do anything… the grass is not always greener, especially if God is not directing it. We all are a dot in His picture, but if your dot is not in the place where He wants you… will His picture be distorted? Hmmm, I wonder.
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Psalm 51:10
I don’t know what you are going through, but God does… He cares. Cry out to Him and lay yourself at His feet. When feelings start to overtake remember His Truth! Lord, I pray for each person that reads this… help us to keep our eyes focused on You… the One that holds life in His hands. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Rejoicing in Truth!