Have you ever come to a time in your life
where it feels like you have been stripped away of almost everything that you
know & are familiar with??? In some ways, I really feel like I am there. Just
when I think I am making headway & connections… it seems like I am back to
square one!
I
have been pretty self-sufficient in my way of thinking & doing things…
rarely letting what others think have an influence over me. God has blessed me
with natural abilities, talents, & lots of stick-to-itiveness… or is the
bull-headedness??? I have been aware of my abilities, aware of my strengths,
& oh so aware of my weaknesses, which has brought me to many good &
successful moments in my life. Realizing that none of this would have been
possible without God’s guidance! I can also see God’s “green light” in new
endeavors… even when I wish He would put on the “red light”… but He knows best…
Right?
This
I know… my love for Father has brought me to this point! His love for me &
for you is greater than anything imaginable. He has placed compassion in my
heart for those living without knowing Him. He has asked me to trust Him as He
guides me down unfamiliar roads. He knows that my burden for others to know His
love… to live in fullness of joy will be a difference maker in my life & in
others’ lives as well.
Here
is my struggle with this… I am not always able to get this message across! I
have so much passion in my heart for people to know they are loved… that God
loves them! To have them experience how special they are in God’s eyes! I have
prayed for God to let me see others through His eyes… and those moments when I
get just a glimpse of that… WOW! It has changed my outlook! The hardest part
for me is when people don’t want it for themselves. I can want all the goodness
in the world for someone, but I cannot force them to receive it!
My
heart is a little heavy… I am fighting off discouragement. There are 2 events I
am involved with coordinating in the next month & it feels like I am at a
stand-still. It is not about putting on the events… it’s about getting people
interested in coming… to see how much more God has for them. That’s the thing,
when you try to do new things… it is a risk! And trying to control what I have
no control over is a cause for anxiety in my life. Here is what the Holy Spirit
reminded me of… “Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer
& supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.”
Philippians 4:6
The
truth is, no matter what happens with these events… I am being obedient! If
only one person shows up… then I will pour out God’s love on that one person!
God knows my heart… it is not about me… it is all about Him! I will give Him
glory no matter what!
Obedience to the Lord
will never be seen as failure!
Sometimes
when you step out of your comfort zone, you will step in the mud… but that is
okay, ‘cuz God will turn that mess into a message to be used for Him! Not a
message in a bottle, but a message in a puddle! It will be worked for good!
Rejoicing
in Truth!.
Carin
PS: Go over to Holley Gerth's "You're Loved No Matter What: Freeing Your Heart from the Need to Be Perfect" for more inspiration!
